that your chest is going to explode?

she is my world. she is my light and my dark. she is what i live for. i would die for her. she is everything that is beautiful to me. i need her like i need to breath to sleep to think. she is a part of me. without her im nothing. just this lifeless shell of a person. she taught me to be myself and how not to be scared to let people in. she took my lesbian virginity. she gave me my first kiss in the rain. she told me she would love me forever. she is my rock my knight in shining armor my savior my protector. my world.my angel. i love her as much as one person can love another. she makes me laugh she is my bestfriend and the person i want to spend forever with. i know her backwards and forwards, inside and out. and she knows the same a bout me. when im in her arms im free im happy im...i was loved. when i hold her in mine im complete.

but she doesnt love me anymore....

i want to crawl in a whole and die. my throat feels like it is going to close up. i throw up everything i eat. and i havent stopped crying in two days.god do i love her...

"i can be your hero baby. i can kiss away the pain. i will stand by you FOREVER."
forever fell short...

"if i lay here if i just lay here would you lie with me and just forget the world? forget what were told b4 we get too old show me a garden thats bursting into life all tha i am all that i ever was is here in your perfect green eyes there all i can see"

i wish i could make her remember all the times we had the late night early mornings smiles and laughs i wish i could make her love me agian but its no use she has made up her mind.i need her so bad.

i dont know what to do anymore...im so lost.

i wish she knew that i would change i would be different i would make her happy agian i would do anything and everything i could to make her come back to me. i want her to take me back and hold me and protect me. i need to feel her close. i love her more than anything.


"If you’re not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you’re not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all
I'll never know what the future brings
But I know you're here with me now
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
If I don’t need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don’t need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you’re not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you’re not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?
I don’t know why you’re so far away
But I know that this much is true
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you’re the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life
I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
‘Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
‘Cause I love you, whether it’s wrong or right
And though I can’t be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side
I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I could stay in your arms"

i guess there is nothing left to say....i love you beautiful,so much its tearing my heart into shreds.